Today At Gym - 08/14

Firstly I am happy to tell you that my mood has lifted, today I feel 100% great - I have normal muscle soreness (especially in my quads which I gave a pounding yesterday), but I am starting to like this feeling since it confirms that I must be doing something right at gym.

In my very first post I mentioned that I was sabotaging my own progress, in terms of muscle growth, by not being able to maintain the calorie surplus required to build muscle due to the fear of fattening up again. To help me along I even came up with a six month plan and special diet.

Unfortunately my sabotaging habits seems very hard to break and I am still doing the exact same things - as soon as the scale goes up a bit I cardio more, I eat less, I worry more etc.

Start Time	06:20
Duration	80 minutes
Calories Burned	1204 kcal
Session Type	Cardiovascular Training
Session Focus	Elliptical Trainer (20 min), Stationary Bike (10 min), Squash (50 min)

This has to stop, I have to come to terms with the fact that in order for me to gain real muscle I will have to gain some fat. I must realize that I already have very light muscles and if I carry on cutting I will definitely end up looking like a holocaust survivor!

And here is another reason I can use to sell this to myself. During my 6 months bulking phase I will get quite fat, but I know (from past experience) that I can burn this off again and cut in the six months following that: This will make for another nice before and after photo...

From today onwards I am eating more, I fully intend to make the number on the scale increase, this number will not scare me, my jeans getting tighter will not upset me, my increased strength will make me feel like I can move the world, my bigger muscles will tell me that the sweat is all worth it, and I will giggle at the fat, knowing that while they may be ganging up on me their days are literally numbered!